it’s been weeks since i’ve written. another excuse from busyness. i can tell i’m slacking. and i’m trying to drive. and i’ve forgotten why i started this blog. but then i remembered. i put my thoughts here. and i find my thoughts here. and when i reopened my blog the first thing i saw was the title. “pilot me” it’s been so long since i had written, or heard the song that inspired me for the title. but i went back to my thoughts and was reminded that i can’t drive. i can’t be the pilot. i can’t do this own my own, and lately i think that’s what i’ve been trying to do. but i’ve forgotten that i need a pilot, i need direction. i need instruction. i can’t make my own way. and in trying lately to take control, i’ve built up so much stress. unneeded stress. unneeded worrying. unneeded anxiety. all because i’ve been trying to drive, and i don’t even have a learner’s permit.
anyway. i constantly need reminding that i’m not in control. that it’s not my race. it’s His. it took coming back here to get my thoughts down, and letting go. and i’m thankful He brought me back so i could let go.
God, pilot me.